最近，我真的感觉到很累，很累。应该是工作的关系罢。真的没多于的时间让我去想太多东西。我想，我已经想通了，同时也放开和放弃了。。。。这是件好事吧！！！一个人同时牵挂和念着太多的事情，有时真的会让人喘不过气来，我想我也是吧。有时想起了真的会让我感到伤感和难受，但我想，现在已经不会了。。。我真的很累了，也不想再提起和想起了。是时候了。。。。
我想现在感觉真的比较好了，真的好多了。虽然有时我真的选者去逃避，可是有许多事终究要去面对，因为人生当中总有很多取舍真的让我无法去躲避。最终，我选者去放弃，我知道有许多美好的东西，事情和人在等着我。。。可是，我想这是需要一些时间吧。。。急也无济于事的。。。。随缘吧。。。
工作虽然感到很疲倦，但我学到了和明白了许多。固执和执著是没用的。这也让我想通了。有时从另一方面想也是件好事。这是真的！！！！
好吧，即然已经决定了，就勇敢和努力去实行，坚持到底，加油吧！！！因我仍然坚信明天会更好。。。。人生要这样才有希望和未来。。。我是可以做到的。
Thursday, April 24, 2008
~Reflection of Tzeik Tzuan's birthday~
Recently.I’m really feel very tired.Really very tired.Not enough time for me now.On my mind,I know that the lives of working is like that and I also feel hard and tough to imagine my feeling now.JUSt one word-TIRED.
Now.I just going to work at everyday and just doing the same stuffs only.Actually I really feel like want to immediately write down somethings or incidents which was happening in my lives into my blog in that time when after it was happened.But I really feel so tired and no mood to write itdown already.By then,I also will postpone to write it down while I’m having the free time.Haha….I think working have it advantages and also have disadvantag
es….
Last night,we are having a birthday party with Tzeik Tzuan.Actually we are decided to give a surprised to him but failure already.Athough there are not many peoples present at last night,but anyway the condition on that time was still good and not bad.We are chatting and discussed with eac
h other about the lives of each other and what they are busy now. However,I got some special and strange feeling at last night and I also hard to explain my state of mind about that.I’m feel a bit sad and down because I really miss my school lives but on reality it really end and over already.For me,it really was my best memories which is always put inside my heart.I think that’s forever.Haha…And we are like all ‘OLD friends’ joined together and….But in the opposite side,can’t be deny that after this two months,we really seem like wanna separate to other places already.We will go to trace down our dreams.
So,we will organizing the birthday party to each other because this is a golden chances and good reason for each other to join togther.Finally,I really hope that can celebrate my birthday together with my friend before I’m go for study in other areas.And I also hope that this year can celebrate my birthday together with my best friends-Pei Yin once time again.This’s a promise.
~Dear my best friends>>Pei Yin~
Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Forget about the one's who don't. Believe everything happens for a reason. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.
Friends are like balloons; once you let them go, you might not get them back. Sometimes we get so busy with our own lives and problems that we may not even notice that we've let them fly away. Sometimes we are so caught up in who's right and who's wrong that we forget what's right and wrong. Sometimes we just don't realize what real friendship means until it is too late. I don't want to let that happen so I'm gonna tie you to my heart so I never lose you.
This passage was written down to all my friends,especially my best friends-pei yin.I really hope that our friendship can long last and forever because feel happy and lucky have a friends like YOU.No matter we are locating at anywhere in the future time,you are my best friends forever.
Thanks God let a chances for me to meet with you and all my friends.Dear pei yin,I regard you have a happy ending with jun fei.And beside that wish I also can get my perfect partner la and the first person I will inform is YOU oh….haha….
Friends are like balloons; once you let them go, you might not get them back. Sometimes we get so busy with our own lives and problems that we may not even notice that we've let them fly away. Sometimes we are so caught up in who's right and who's wrong that we forget what's right and wrong. Sometimes we just don't realize what real friendship means until it is too late. I don't want to let that happen so I'm gonna tie you to my heart so I never lose you.
This passage was written down to all my friends,especially my best friends-pei yin.I really hope that our friendship can long last and forever because feel happy and lucky have a friends like YOU.No matter we are locating at anywhere in the future time,you are my best friends forever.
Thanks God let a chances for me to meet with you and all my friends.Dear pei yin,I regard you have a happy ending with jun fei.And beside that wish I also can get my perfect partner la and the first person I will inform is YOU oh….haha….
~For my parents~
This passage was special written for my parents.Why I will written down this passage because after I was viewing a passage from the blog of my best friend’s pei yin was talking about her family and it’s really touches my heart and made me feel the family is very important for me while family forever is my harbor of refuge.Especially my mom because even though what’s the stuff I’ve done although it’s was wrong or correct but she always at there to support me.And it also made me feel that I must always seize the time and opportunity to filial piety with my parents.Because everythings in this reality world are out of our control.If I’m not take the time to treasure my moment with my parents and scare after that I will feel regret and anythings is of no avail already.Erm…I really don’t want have any feel sorry and regret in my lives especially with my parents.
On my mind,my mother is a hardworking and responsible person.She is a open-minded and never restrain my liberty and always provide many freedom for me. Erm…Even though on my study or anythings…she never give any tense and compel me to achive some certain target.Sometimes she just at there to give some advice and guidance for me and she always said what the things I’m put effort at there then I will get back it at my future time.She really give many freedom for me and I’m feel luckily and happy because she’s my mom.Our get along way and manner is like like a friends and we can discuss anythings or issues.Erm…Why mom give a lot of freedom for me and she always 100% trust for me because between I and my mom does not have any secret or hide the truth from my mom.However if have anythings is not correct then I will straightly talk to my mom but sometimes I really feel that I’m unreversence to her because my characteristic is a bit suddenurge and impulse.Then some moment I also will argue with a superior or an elder with her because I really can ‘t control my emotional feeling.But I’m decided to change and dispel out this bad characteristic and I think need to take some moment la.
Haizz…I really hope that can disappear it as soon as possible and try to be keep calm and patient on anythings.Because I really don’t want them to be feel sad and make them angry again.Although I’m less communicate with my father but I know that he really love me and care me also….
I know that my parents really try to work hard and give a perfect and consummate condition for me to grow up and stay.Everyday both of them really busy for working and earn the money for us to maintain the expenses of the family.Through that face I’m really deeply know that they feel so tired already and also less time to take a break for some moment.
So the most importantly matter for me now is try to study hard and can get a good job on my future time.And this will lessen my parent’s burden.Futhermore,I also hope that can support or provide a good condition for them to stay and don’t want them to work hard again and enjoy a happy life on their future time.I really hope that I can achieve that and this is a promise and just what I can do for them to redound their education and raise devotions.Although they really can’t provide for me on many material things but I think their love and take care for me was enough already.
Haha…My parents always look me as a adamancy person but actually I’m not very seem like that.And my of my friend also think me like that.Hehe..But you all don’t know I’m a person easy to cry on somethings which are hurt me or touches my heart.Because sometimes when I’m scold or misunderstanding by them I will feel sad and tears will atomatically sheds out from my eyes.I’m not stronger like what they are visualizing for me because I’m very caring their feeling for me.So,I really hope that my dreams can come true….
On my mind,my mother is a hardworking and responsible person.She is a open-minded and never restrain my liberty and always provide many freedom for me. Erm…Even though on my study or anythings…she never give any tense and compel me to achive some certain target.Sometimes she just at there to give some advice and guidance for me and she always said what the things I’m put effort at there then I will get back it at my future time.She really give many freedom for me and I’m feel luckily and happy because she’s my mom.Our get along way and manner is like like a friends and we can discuss anythings or issues.Erm…Why mom give a lot of freedom for me and she always 100% trust for me because between I and my mom does not have any secret or hide the truth from my mom.However if have anythings is not correct then I will straightly talk to my mom but sometimes I really feel that I’m unreversence to her because my characteristic is a bit suddenurge and impulse.Then some moment I also will argue with a superior or an elder with her because I really can ‘t control my emotional feeling.But I’m decided to change and dispel out this bad characteristic and I think need to take some moment la.
Haizz…I really hope that can disappear it as soon as possible and try to be keep calm and patient on anythings.Because I really don’t want them to be feel sad and make them angry again.Although I’m less communicate with my father but I know that he really love me and care me also….
I know that my parents really try to work hard and give a perfect and consummate condition for me to grow up and stay.Everyday both of them really busy for working and earn the money for us to maintain the expenses of the family.Through that face I’m really deeply know that they feel so tired already and also less time to take a break for some moment.
So the most importantly matter for me now is try to study hard and can get a good job on my future time.And this will lessen my parent’s burden.Futhermore,I also hope that can support or provide a good condition for them to stay and don’t want them to work hard again and enjoy a happy life on their future time.I really hope that I can achieve that and this is a promise and just what I can do for them to redound their education and raise devotions.Although they really can’t provide for me on many material things but I think their love and take care for me was enough already.
Haha…My parents always look me as a adamancy person but actually I’m not very seem like that.And my of my friend also think me like that.Hehe..But you all don’t know I’m a person easy to cry on somethings which are hurt me or touches my heart.Because sometimes when I’m scold or misunderstanding by them I will feel sad and tears will atomatically sheds out from my eyes.I’m not stronger like what they are visualizing for me because I’m very caring their feeling for me.So,I really hope that my dreams can come true….
~WAITING~Is a long journey
Lately,my lives was get through like a time-table because everyday was repeated doing the same things.Haha..let me tell you what’s the things I was doing everyday?Erm…first is sleeping then the other things is working.Everyday I just doing the repeated things and also feel blur already.While I’m working and will look forward to my off day.Erm,I really want to spend and adjust some moment with my friends too.Haha,actually my lives is quite boring and tired now.Sometimes I’m really feel so tired and wanna have a break.But nevermind la because I think better than I just stay at home and doing nothing and just looking around.Beside that I also can fill up my free time and eran some money.I think I can do and adapt it la because if I’m going to work everyday,I feel that the time was passing more faster and just passing day after day.
By then,I also hope that this two months can passing more faster because now I really lazy to work already.haha…because really measure land for a quite long moment already.Erm…For me,I think waiting for somethings is like over a long time especially waiting for intake of local university which is also is a unknown result and also not yet have downright certainty can get to enter it or not….I think my humour and state of mind for that is quite complicated and confused.I really hope can get to enter it and fulfill my dreams and get successfully in my future time.But now,I’m just can waiting at here until month of June and can’t to do anythings too.
Sometimes,I also will miss my school lives with all my friends because it’s really left quite a lot of sweet and nest memories for me.Haha…Even thongh I’m working now, but in my opinion,I still think that study is more far away better than working.Because working need to face many stress and tense and also many things.And if study and we just concentrate on the lesson only.
Erm..I really hope that I can get what’s I’m hope and successfully enter local University la.Now I’m can’t do anythings and just can pray on my mind only.however I also need to decide my another ways if I can’t get local uni.If not,I scare will rush and lost after that.Aiyo,really trouble with that la……Haha,I’m really feel trouble and confused about that because many of my friends also asked me the same questions. Nut I will take some time to think it nicely and carefully.
By then,I also hope that this two months can passing more faster because now I really lazy to work already.haha…because really measure land for a quite long moment already.Erm…For me,I think waiting for somethings is like over a long time especially waiting for intake of local university which is also is a unknown result and also not yet have downright certainty can get to enter it or not….I think my humour and state of mind for that is quite complicated and confused.I really hope can get to enter it and fulfill my dreams and get successfully in my future time.But now,I’m just can waiting at here until month of June and can’t to do anythings too.
Sometimes,I also will miss my school lives with all my friends because it’s really left quite a lot of sweet and nest memories for me.Haha…Even thongh I’m working now, but in my opinion,I still think that study is more far away better than working.Because working need to face many stress and tense and also many things.And if study and we just concentrate on the lesson only.
Erm..I really hope that I can get what’s I’m hope and successfully enter local University la.Now I’m can’t do anythings and just can pray on my mind only.however I also need to decide my another ways if I can’t get local uni.If not,I scare will rush and lost after that.Aiyo,really trouble with that la……Haha,I’m really feel trouble and confused about that because many of my friends also asked me the same questions. Nut I will take some time to think it nicely and carefully.
~WORKING~
Lately,I’m just busy for working and I think that really not enough free time for me now to do many stuffs.Erm…many of my plans also just shelve and pigeonhole at there only.Now,everyday I’m going to work usually and just repeating the same things in day by day.It’s really quite boring la.But working is like that,so I must try my best to be more patient on that.By then,I’m also feel very tired,weary and sleepy because sometimes need to work over-time on my job.
For me,working the part-time job have their advantages and disadvantages la.The profit is I can earn some money and save it into bank and also can earn some experiences on that because I will facing distinct types of peoples.The sound heard like so good but it’s not.While I’m working,I will feel a bit tension on that especially in front my boss because I need to persuade the customers buy the products and she also pay attentions on me too.Through that,I’m really tried my best and all my skills to introduce the products and persuade customers to buy it.But anyway,I can learn many knowledges on that and maybe it could be useful for me on my future time.
Disadvantages is I will become less time and chances to meet and chatting with my friends already because I’m working until too late.Even though like that but I will always miss my friends oh.The other things is no time to arrange my bedroom.Hiaz…It really look like in a mess and disorder….After I was finished to work,I’m really feel so tired and no mood to arrange it already.Undertaken I’m busy for working,I think that will made me to forget some unhappy things which was put inside my heart long time ago.But it’s not.When I’m free and just stare vacantly at there to wait the customers,that things will appearing on my mind and thought plus I’m heard some music which is touching my heart.It really make me feel a bit down on that moment.Haizz..I really hope that can disappear on my mind as soon as possible and the best is forever because I’ really can’t control it.However,I really will try my best because it could make me always trouble on that.Many reality shown that advise me to give up and released on that.
I really feel wearly and implicated now…And what I’m feeling now and my experiences was just written through out the blog.After I’ve been written through out evrythings on my mind,I will feel more better and relaxed.But I’m promised myself must be patient and insist on anythings.Nevermind la,it’s just for two months only.If not just stay at home also is useless only because most of my friends also have their jobs already.
Haha…Why I want to work because I Hope and dream can go for trip for once time again with my friends before the terms is begin.This is my expert and desire now.Anyway.I hope can fulfill this plan la…
For me,working the part-time job have their advantages and disadvantages la.The profit is I can earn some money and save it into bank and also can earn some experiences on that because I will facing distinct types of peoples.The sound heard like so good but it’s not.While I’m working,I will feel a bit tension on that especially in front my boss because I need to persuade the customers buy the products and she also pay attentions on me too.Through that,I’m really tried my best and all my skills to introduce the products and persuade customers to buy it.But anyway,I can learn many knowledges on that and maybe it could be useful for me on my future time.
Disadvantages is I will become less time and chances to meet and chatting with my friends already because I’m working until too late.Even though like that but I will always miss my friends oh.The other things is no time to arrange my bedroom.Hiaz…It really look like in a mess and disorder….After I was finished to work,I’m really feel so tired and no mood to arrange it already.Undertaken I’m busy for working,I think that will made me to forget some unhappy things which was put inside my heart long time ago.But it’s not.When I’m free and just stare vacantly at there to wait the customers,that things will appearing on my mind and thought plus I’m heard some music which is touching my heart.It really make me feel a bit down on that moment.Haizz..I really hope that can disappear on my mind as soon as possible and the best is forever because I’ really can’t control it.However,I really will try my best because it could make me always trouble on that.Many reality shown that advise me to give up and released on that.
I really feel wearly and implicated now…And what I’m feeling now and my experiences was just written through out the blog.After I’ve been written through out evrythings on my mind,I will feel more better and relaxed.But I’m promised myself must be patient and insist on anythings.Nevermind la,it’s just for two months only.If not just stay at home also is useless only because most of my friends also have their jobs already.
Haha…Why I want to work because I Hope and dream can go for trip for once time again with my friends before the terms is begin.This is my expert and desire now.Anyway.I hope can fulfill this plan la…
~My friend's birthday party~
Last nite<4-4-2008> was boon tat’s birthday.We really done a lot of preparations to his birthdays especially me and pei yin.Since before the once week of his birthday is coming,me n pei yin were starting to contact other friends to share the present n cake.Beside that,every night we also dicussed the stuff through the msn.On that moment,we really faced a lot of problem on that like we really hard to call back our X-classmate coz everyone also busy to do their own stuffs and I’m also not very confirm that how many people would be present.We are wasted a lot of time to prepare like buy the cake and present coz we don’t want boon tat will feel disappointed on his birthday.We want to make it become special and unforgotten for him. As a friend,I think that’s what I need to do for him.Which he’s also lended a lot of helping hand for me while I’m faced some trouble and problem.Haha…Although sometimes he will make me angry la….But he still is a good guys n nice friend also la.This cause me n pei yin really not heart-hearted make him disappointed.After few more months,I will separating with all my friends.Haha..Boon tat~U need how to redound upon me n pei yin ar???Hehe..just kidding la….For me,v can just do anythings for our friends….After that,all of my friends include me will continuing study in different area to seek their dreams n future.So,I must treasure all the gatherings now and take many photos as memories….
Through the last night party,I really felt a bit amazing because almost like half of all my form six classmates also got absent la…And we also have enjoy ourselves and improve our relationship.Erm…That party make me remember and bring me to mind again my form six lives.I’m really so yearn that moment I’m study in SMI~Uss1~that moment I’m spend with all my friends in school.I’m recall back when I’m 1st day enter in Smi,I really feel blur coz last time I was studying in pure girl’s school for 5 years ago.So,I will less chances to communicate with guys.But when I’m study form six, I was transfer to Smi which is a pure guys school and it really was a greater challenges for me on that time.I really need to take some moment to adapt it.Finally,I really feel happy because I can meet many best friends in my class.Haha..I was meet a crowd of guys in my class and it really bring a lot of changes for me.I really miss that moment we
Furthermore,I also got a secret between me and pei yin.Haha!!!Boon tat~you wont know it forever>>>Boon tat-hope u really have an unforgotten birthday party la…And thanks for u r booking a Vip K-Box room n also pay for us la.If can,I really hope that can celebrate birthday with my best friends in every year.I really hope that our friendship is forever coz for me,I really think that friendship is important on my lives and after this,we will less chances to celebrate our birthday together lo….So,I will try my best to made and prepare a consummate birthday party to my best friends now….Before I go2 study, I hope that this year also can celebrate my birthday together with my most best friends~pei yin…..It’s a promise…
~RECENTLY~
Recently,I’m starting my another part-time job again.I’m working in a shoes shop.It’s a quite boring job but I’m still can adapt the condition in there la.Now I’m really feel lazy and no mood to work because I was just stay at home on last two months ago which I’m doing nothings and just online and watch drama at home only.So,I was decided to find a part-time job while still waiting the intake of local university.I don’t want waste my time and just stay at home only.Beside that,I also can earn some pocket money for me to buy somethings or go for travel la.Furthermore I also can get some experiences ansd improve my communication skills on working la.Actually I can learn a lot of things on that because I need to face a lot of different customers which are different type of races.I’m always try to persuade them to buy the shoes and other products.It will make me improve my community knowledge and can improve my talking skills.Although that is damn n quite boring,but I must be patient because just for 2 months only.Haha…When after I’m stop my job,I decide to go for travel with my friends again.I think maybe I will fulfil this plan at June la….
Sometimes,I’m really feel confused and blur because I really hope this two more months will passing faster but beside that I also want the time to remain at here because I know that after this will have a greater changes and challenges for me.That why it will make me feel confused on both also.But at finally I also must to face it bravely by myself and I’m can’t escape it….It’s true….And I also must spend more time with my family especially my mom~she was always working hard and take care to me….I’m really love her and I’m decided to study hard to redound upon their rear and education devotions to me.
Otherwise,sometimes I also will feel sad and down when I’m thinking for somebody.This stuff really trouble me long time ago.I’m always persuade myself try my best to forget it…But until now,I’m also not yet can achieved it.Now and then I’m really can’t control myself to think about that.Erm..really don’t know how la???But luckily I’m working now,so it will make me less time to thinking about that.Now.I ‘m really hope that someone can appearing in my lives and rescue from that trap….and spread their shoulder for me…because I’m really want to let that unhappy stuff disappear in my lives forever.
Sometimes,I’m really feel confused and blur because I really hope this two more months will passing faster but beside that I also want the time to remain at here because I know that after this will have a greater changes and challenges for me.That why it will make me feel confused on both also.But at finally I also must to face it bravely by myself and I’m can’t escape it….It’s true….And I also must spend more time with my family especially my mom~she was always working hard and take care to me….I’m really love her and I’m decided to study hard to redound upon their rear and education devotions to me.
Otherwise,sometimes I also will feel sad and down when I’m thinking for somebody.This stuff really trouble me long time ago.I’m always persuade myself try my best to forget it…But until now,I’m also not yet can achieved it.Now and then I’m really can’t control myself to think about that.Erm..really don’t know how la???But luckily I’m working now,so it will make me less time to thinking about that.Now.I ‘m really hope that someone can appearing in my lives and rescue from that trap….and spread their shoulder for me…because I’m really want to let that unhappy stuff disappear in my lives forever.
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